A song that describes my past....

I watched the proverbial sunrise
Coming up over the Pacific
You might think I'm losing my mind
But I will shy away from the specifics...

Cause I don't want you to know where I am
Cause then you'll see my heart in the saddest state it's ever been
This is no place to try and live my life

Stop right there
That's exactly where I lost it
See that line
Well I never should have crossed it
Stop right there
Well I never should have said it
That it's the very moment that I wish that I could take back

I'm sorry for the person I became
I'm sorry that it took so long for me to change
I'm ready to be sure I never become that way again
Cause who I am hates who I've been
Who I am hates who I've been

I talk to absolutely no one
Couldn't keep to myself enough
And the things bottled inside have finally begun to create so much pressure
That I'll soon blow up
I heard the reverberating footsteps
Synching up to the beating of my heart
And I was positive that unless I got myself together
I would watch me fall apart
And I can't let that happen again

Cause then you'll see my heart in the saddest state it's ever been
This is no place to try and live my life
Who I am hates who I've been and who I am will take the second chance you gave me
Who I am hates who I've been cause who I've been only ever made me...
So sorry for the person I became
So sorry that it took so long for me to change
I'm ready to be sure I never become that way again

Cause who I am hates who I've been
Who I am hates who I've been