*Disclaimer*

Ok, so I know I haven't really gotten personal in this blog yet. And to tell you the truth....I think it was because I didn't want to show the other parts of me...the depressing and confusing side of me. I censored everything and so far, I have only talked about what's on the surface. And lets face it....that's not what people want to hear. People want the inside scoop. People want to read the 'good stuff,' I mean, I know that's why I read certain blogs and that's probably why everyone reads these things. So it's time that I stop acting like the happy-go-lucky chick who only talks about her fishes or the gilmore girls or wierd neighbors. It's time for me to be raw and real.....so here it goes......



So this weekend was.....umm.....interesting.



James and I were fighting the majority of the time. I know I haven't really gone into detail about my relationship, and that's because I was trying not to sound like I'm bitchy or anything but you know what....?



Screw. That. Shit.



I love him, I really do. But I honestly want to shake the SHIT out of him sometimes.



We stopped talking for about a week. It all started when my phone rang last Monday evening. It was my friend John calling but I ignored the call because we were having a nice relaxing evening together....were being the operative word. All of a sudden he's all withdrawn and jackassy towards me. We start bickering and frankly, I'm fed up because if I talk to any guy then that means I'm going to sleep with him(even though I've never done anything to make him believe that stupid shit!) I have 3 older brothers and I have mostly guy friends, he knew that from the START! A year and a half later....it's still the same old shit. I say hi to a guy...I'm going to cheat. I go to the smoke deck(which is at work for crying out loud) and there's another guy out there....I'm going to cheat. I go to my hometown and have a conversation with my oldest friend who....shocker......is a guy....I'm going to cheat. Are you starting to get the picture? Apparently....I'm a big whore.



Anyways....kindof got side tracked. So back to the story.....



So, this time around I wasn't about to have a big head to head with him so I told him I was done talking about it. (He hates it when I do that because that's 'his' thing!) Well, I was trying to get my bag ready for work the next day and he jumps in and says "So what other guys that I don't know about have your number?" That was the final straw for me so I said "Gee...I don't know DAD! Do I need your approval for every person I am friends with?!?!" It's not like I keep these people from him. I tell him who they are and I try and get him to hang out with my friends that he doesn't know. But just because they are guys it's a problem. I'm apparently only allowed to hang out with the girlfriends or wives of HIS guy friend. And to me....it's bullshit. I can talk to who ever I want to talk to. I'm not doing anything wrong and I'm always open and honest about it.

Well, that resulted in a week of us not talking. That weekend we sort of made up....as in he starts acting all nice to me and I in return try and drop it as well. Then Saturday night, we fight once again! He didn't like that fact that when we were at a party I was listening to this guy's ipod. The guy knew James, James knew him, they were friends. When James walked in from outside smoking, I looked at him and said "Hey baby! Listen to this!" He just stared at me. Apparently, James' wasted friend came over to "defend" James' woman(whatever!) and jerked the ipod away from me and started talking shit to this guy! I said "fuck this. I'm going outside."

When James and I get home he tells me that he thought we were sitting too close to each other and the other guy was trying to help. I said "Excuse me!!? We were sitting at a dining room table, in different chairs. He had some good music on his ipod and I was just listening to it. There was nothing wrong with what I was doing! No flirting from him or me!"

And it just escalated from there.

Of course the next day he apologized and blamed most of it on the alcohol.

It just pisses me off soooo damn much. I love him to death but he's just a jealous guy and I hate it. We were raised completely different ways. I'm a country girl with 3 brothers and grew up as a tomboy. I played football with the guys (still do) and joke around and have fun with guys without coming across as "ohh I want to jump you." James grew up in Long Island and apparently if a girl hangs with the guys then they are dykes or trying to hook up with one of them. (That's what he says) AND he loves doing couple things. I mean, there's nothing wrong with it but it's like if there's a single person around then they are a leper(sp?). I don't hang out with only couples. I've always been a very socialable person, jumping from group to group and friend to friend.

There's no way he and I can survive if when he deploys in June if he continues to act this way!

Need help ladies!!

So 2 of my good friends are taking that dangerous leap. They are going where none of my friends have gone before. They are the first and I'm scared for them!

That's right folks.....marraige! I wonder if this is the start of it all. I know we all get to the age where two by two our friends start getting hitched....but I'm only 21! I didn't think it was going to happen for a few more years!

Anyways....there engagement party is tomorrow nite and I need ideas for a present to get them. My friend Ashes told me that anything they can use around the house would work. Like, dishes, skillets, wine glasses, crock pot...stuff like that. But I want to get something a little bit more unique for them. I just KNOW that if I get them a set of wine glasses then with my luck, other people will have gotten them the same thing.

So gals, use those noggins and help a fellow blogger out pllleeeeeaaaasseee? I'll be your bestest friend ;^)

Thanks a bunch in advance!

I got lots of fish!!

16 to be exact!



For Vday I took boyfriend to the pet store and got him the 20gal tank and the stand and all the gucci shit that goes in it. I didn't realize that fish stuff was soooo damn expensive! He told me that he would pay for the fish that he wanted. Well, he got 4 angel fish, 2 tiger somethings, 2 gold looking fish, 1 sucker, 3 tiny pink ones(just for me!) and 5 little mean ones. I know I'm very precise when it comes to the names huh?

And for those of you who can count....that's 17 right? WELL....one of the tiger fish got caught by the filter and died. Now I have a depressed fish on my hands. There names were Larry and Bob....and bob was the one that ended up croaking and now Larry won't swim around or eat or anything. =^( It's rather sad. All he does is hide behind the treasure chest and the leaves and won't go around the other fish. Boyfriend didn't believe me at first but after a day or so of Larry being depressed James came running into the bedroom to deliver the news!

"Baaaaaaby! Larry IS depressed! He hasn't moved from that spot in 2 whole days! Maybe we could find some fishy antidepressants. What do you think?"

"I know James. That's what I've been trying to tell you. As for the antidepressants? I'll look into it baby."

haha....he's a goober!

Anyways....so I hate my upstairs neighbors! 15 Mexicans living in a tiny one bedroom apartment and always being loud! One of them has a girlfriend with a little boy whom I've nicknamed "Son of Satan" He's EVIL! And he's a little brat! I swear he jumps around thier apartment on purpose JUST to piss me off! And after I banged on the ceiling this weekend to get them to shut the hell up...I think the mother started ecouraging him to do it and joined in herself! That boy isn't big enough to make the loud noises that were going on after I banged the ceiling. One time it was like 10 at night on a Tuesday and there was this loud ass bang and our entire apartment shook. So I grab my slippers and ran upstairs to ask them what the hell was going on. Well when one opens the door I see a loveseat with 4 guys on it(NOT including the one that was at the door) and said "Um, excuse me but whatever the hell you guys are doing up here is SHAKING our apartment. It's loud and annoying and it needs to quit....NOW!" He just stares at me for a minute then points to his fatass friend on the arm of the loveseat and said "Um he fell." And that was it!! So I gave him this look that said YOU ARE AN IDIOT! and really said "okay well knock it off." Went back downstairs and didn't hear much from them the rest of the night.

Grrrr I can't wait to get a house this June!

My neighbor is strange....

So I was sitting on the computer last nite (had to take a break from gilmore girls lol) and I get a knock at the door. Well, it was my neighbor Cam....and out of all the possibilities in the whole world, you know what he asked me?

"Hey Kelly! What's up? I was just wondering, could I put some bacon in your freezor?"

"Ummm, [chuckles a little bit] suuuuure Cam. But here's a silly question...why?"

I started cracking up and then he realized that he should have explained the reason FIRST and then ASK second! lol I'm still laughing at this question.

Apparently, he wants to make his wife a special breakfast for Vday and he hates bacon so if it's in thier freezor then she'll know that it's for something special and he wants to suprise her. I thought that was adorable, even though his deliver was random.

I don't have a Valentine this year cuz boyfriend is out of town till Friday =^( I think I'm just gonna watch Gilmore girls and eat lots of Chocolate.

Boyfriend better have something good planned when he gets back!

Woo Hoo for the Gilmores!!!

I just want to start by saying thank you to Shar for turning me into a Gilmore girls fan. I never really watched it before and then she had a post talking about how they were ending the show. So when I went home that nite I turned it on.....after 10 minutes I was HOOKED! haha So I started to TIVO it, but the boyfriend is all about his damn Xbox so I didn't get to watch it that much. Well, I told my momma that I wanted Gilmore Girls for Xmas, and you know what she got me?? The SEVENTH season! I was like "Umm....thank you momma, but I don't have ANY of the seasons and I haven't seen all of them. Why did you go for the last one?"

Anyways, I said screw it and started to watch it. WELL! On T.V. they are only up to about the 3rd season so when I started the 7th I got confused! And I got bummed out because I was finding out all this info that had already happened. So I immediately stopped watching, got on amazon and ordered all the other seasons! The FINALLY arrived yesterday so I text the boyfriend and said "ITS HERE! U get a Xbox nite free of bitching!" hehe I spent 6 hours watching the first season and I'm only up to about the 3rd CD. And another good thing....the boyfriend will be gone all next week for work so I get to use the big HD T.V. without any mouth from him! hahaha I'm excited!

Once again....THANKS SHAR =^)

One day to go!

Tomorrow I will be heading home and I can't wait! Although, I think I'm going to cry when I walk into my parents house because it's going to be so empty. They are in the process of moving in with my grandmother to help her out. My grandfather passed away last April and they go over all the time but they figured that it would be easier if they just moved in there. They already drive her everywhere and do her grocery shopping for her.....she's pretty big and can't be on her feet for too long so it's hard for her to get around. Anyways....my whole point was, my friend Ashley went by to see my parents and t/m me saying my house looks so depressing now. I was born and raised in that house and lived there until I was 19 so seeing it so bare is going to depress me =^(

That house just has so much life in it ya know? There's not a space on any of the walls that doesn't have a painting, or picture of our family. One wall is nothing but plaques from when my dad coached and I think the last time I counted there was close to 100. We were a very sports oriented family. All my brothers wrestled, played football, baseball and a little bit of basketball. I played softball, volleyball and basketball....and I would play football with my brothers at thier practices. Oh, and I did alot of horseback riding. Damn! Just thinking about all of it makes me sad....I wish I could go back to being 10 years old and do it all over again!

Ok, gotta change the subject before I make myself cry....

So, I'm thinking of cutting my hair....I've been wanting bangs for awhile now. But i've got this cowlick so they'd have to be choppy side bangs. I registered for this webiste that allows you to experiment with all kinds of hair dos and give yourself a complete makeover. I gave myself one and just left it minimized on the screen, well the boyfriend got on the computer and saw it and asked me who the hell that was on the computer hehe. I was just goofing around too! I gave myself dark brown hair, big sunglasses and lots of makeup so it didn't look like me at all.

Alrighty.....it's about that time. Gotta go PT now. Everyone have a good weekend!!!

Three day weekend! Woo Hoo!!

For the next 3 weeks, I have a three day weekend....I say again....WOO HOO! hehe

Well, this weekend my boss decided to give everyone Monday off after the superbowl. His reasoning....the Giants fans need a grieving period after they lose. If you couldn't tell, he's a Pats fan. Me? I'm just in it for the commercials.

Speaking of, last year they sucked, so I hope this year they are better. Ok....I take that back, there was ONE good one that I liked. Yall remember the Carlos Mencia one? Where he's teaching foreiners how to ask for a bud light in different parts of the U.S. I loved that one!! I also hope that the halftime show is better this year.....I apoligize to all you Prince fans but....EW! I really think that people started cheering at the end because it was FINALLY over! haha

Then next weekend I'm going home because my parents want me to go to the Policeman's ball with them. I know I'm going to be hungover on that Sunday so I requested Monday off so I wouldn't have to drive 4 hours back here all hungover. It should be a blast though, I've heard so many stories about the drunk cops and how goofy they are. Now that I'm 21 my dad has been begging me to go with them....he's so sweet, wants to get drunk with his only daughter! hehe. My dad is the cutest drunk I have ever seen. When I go home I make him do Tequila shots and jagerbombs with me =^). He gets all giggly and happy when he drinks.


The weekend after that one is President's day so we are off again! I love having Mondays off because that's the worst day of the week(I'm sure most people would agree). Starting on Tuesday is great because before you know it, it's hump day then Friday and then the weekend.

So on that note.....everyone have a good weekend!